As I find myself entering into a new season of life with my five children, I am discovering (and learning) how to release them, more than ever, into the loving arms of the Father. The earlier years now seem like a “walk in the park” compared to letting them go. Don’t get me wrong, the early years weren’t easy, but at least I knew everything about their day, such as what they would wear, what they would eat, and whom they would spend their time with. Now, with one graduated from college, another married, two in college, and one graduating from high school in a year, I find it challenging to know my new role as Mom. They don’t want my advice most of time, unless they ask for it, which isn’t very often.
Pondering what it means to “pay attention,” I am suddenly more aware of the Holy Spirit speaking to me, particularly as it relates to my children. For their sake, I am learning to be silent, to wait, and most importantly to pray. I must allow time for the Holy Spirit to speak, direct, nudge, or convict them--whatever the need may be at that specific moment. The open doors that God gives me to respond are precious, like rare gems, such as a word of affirmation or a prayer offered up in the secret place of my closet, sometimes on my knees pleading for Him to intervene. Only the Holy Spirit really knows how to intercede or to speak to their hearts in a way that is effective and life-changing.
When they were younger, they were like little sponges, soaking up my every word, as it should be, for those were the training up years. On the contrary, it is time for them to learn how to soak up the words of God, the only One who truly carries the words of life. I am learning to pass the baton to Him, not that it was ever really mine to carry. There was a time when our children received from my husband and me, but now is the time for them to learn to receive directly from the Lord. And hopefully, they will one day have the privilege of passing along to their children all that they have learned and received from Him.
There’s another area in which the Holy Spirit seems to be speaking to me personally. I am discovering deep desires within my soul that have suddenly been re-awakened, like a fresh calling. Could it be possible that at the age of fifty-one, God is actually calling me to something brand new? An unknown territory, just waiting to be explored?
Several months ago, the Holy Spirit woke me up in the middle of the night and said, “Dream with Me.” I’m not sure yet what all this means or entails, but there is a new expectation that God has more for my life. Therefore, I cannot afford to be complacent with the mundane rhythms of life, nor grieve the loss of what used to be, but rather live each day with the reality that God still has a destiny for my life. It just may look different than it did before, like a new adventure with God!
I love how Steven Curtis Chapman puts it in his song, “The Great Adventure.”
Through the wild blue yonder of God's Amazing grace
Let's follow our leader into the Glorious unknown
This is the life like no other whoa whoa
This is the great adventure
As I embrace this new season of life, I must choose not to be afraid, but rather attend my ear to the voice of my loving Father and respond in obedience to His call.
~ Meet Laura Bachtel ~
Laura Bachtel and her husband Bryan have been married for nearly twenty-eight years. They are the proud parents of five amazing children, from age twenty-four down to sixteen. Laura homeschooled all five of her children during their elementary years and then sent them to Artios Academies in Gwinnett for the remaining years. She now teaches high school English at Artios and loves sharing with her students her passion for writing and great literature. Some of her favorite hobbies include finding new ways to make healthy food taste really yummy, traveling to new places with her family, and enjoying a savory cup of coffee and dark chocolate while reading a good book. Laura's children are in age order as follows: Sara, 24; Alicia, 22; Maryellen, 20; Caleb, 18; and Josh, 16