This season of my life seems to be a constant whirlwind of change. Even as I reflect on the past three months, it is almost unbelievable how many changes have come my way, from my husband switching companies back in April to my mom recently being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s (only to mention a couple). The list goes on and on.
During this uncertain period, I have come to realize, more than ever, how much I seriously do NOT like change. I actually resist it at times, maybe not with my words or body language, but on the inside, my heart is having a full, outright temper tantrum. For example, two months ago when our sixteen-year-old son was participating in a church-wide yard sale to raise funds for a mission trip, my husband was offered a house full of items from a co-worker who simply needed to clean out a second home that she had recently sold.
My husband thought it would be a “fabulous” idea to rent a twenty-six foot long truck from Home Depot, load as much stuff on it as possible, and donate all of its contents to the yard sale. Sounds like a great idea, right? Well, all of this happened the same week my husband switched real estate companies and left town for the weekend for a training conference in California, while Josh and I went through every item on the truck, trying to decide if it was worth selling and if so, for how much? And this is only a part of the story; I will spare you the rest of the details.
Overall, this was too much change in one week for my poor little brain to process. I may have been smiling on the outside to all my church friends volunteering that week, but on the inside, I was about to have a complete meltdown! I simply did not want to embrace the unexpected changes before me with grace and strength, but instead, I chose to complain and feel sorry for myself.
On Sunday morning I attended church as usual. Little did I know that the message would be directed at me personally, at least that was how I felt. The title of the sermon was “What is the Meaning of Life,” taken from 1 Peter 1:3-12. To capture the overall message, in a nutshell, God has given us as His children everything we need pertaining to life and godliness. He desires for each one of us to share in His life, one that is fruitful, effective, and eternal. Sounds beautiful, but when life throws us overwhelming challenges or obstacles, it may feel like there is a huge gap between us and God.
In those moments, we have a choice. We can either choose to accept God’s invitation to engage with Him, or we can decline the invitation and completely miss out on the eternal blessings He has in store for us. When we say, “Yes,” to Him, it then becomes a God-given opportunity for us to practice, not master, His divine nature. And as we submit to His Spirit which resides within us, then the Father can bring transformation in our hearts, placing us in perfect position to resist the enemy. Interesting how that works. When we finally stop resisting the will of the Holy Spirit but instead yield to what He is doing, we are able to resist the devil (James 4:7).
As I continue to navigate this new season with my husband’s work and my mom ’s condition, I no longer want to resist what God is doing, but rather embrace all He has for me-- and for them. For my husband, I want to genuinely support him in every way I can, to submit to his leadership as he seeks to provide for our family, even if it means loading and unloading a truck full of countless items to support our son’s mission trip to Kosovo.
For my mom, I want to seize this opportunity as a way to express my gratitude for the many years she has been there for me, loving me unconditionally and sacrificing daily her own desires for the sake of her family. My prayer is that my service to them is all done as unto my precious Savior and Lord.
Thank You, Lord, that I can’t, but You can--for apart from You, I can do nothing.
~ Meet Laura Bachtel ~
Laura Bachtel and her husband Bryan have been married for nearly twenty-eight years. They are the proud parents of five amazing children, from age twenty-four down to sixteen. Laura homeschooled all five of her children during their elementary years and then sent them to Artios Academies in Gwinnett for the remaining years. She now teaches high school English at Artios and loves sharing with her students her passion for writing and great literature. Some of her favorite hobbies include finding new ways to make healthy food taste really yummy, traveling to new places with her family, and enjoying a savory cup of coffee and dark chocolate while reading a good book. Laura's children are in age order as follows: Sara, 24; Alicia, 22; Maryellen, 20; Caleb, 18; and Josh, 16